Today, I will go to the bookstore and help my friend Kathy. Honestly, there is nothing I would like to do more today. I could tutor all day but had the opportunity to drop my shift; I could grade today, but I really don’t like grading most of the time. I could write all day, but I just don’t want to. I could read, but I don’t have the stamina for lines of words. So I will talk to people, and I will come home very tired. I will come home content.
I am fascinated by people and communities that are content, at least that seem content. Some tribal groups seem absolutely satisfied with ritual and provision. At least on the shows I see or in the books I read (and of course, these are limited perspectives), I don’t see people striving for more or trying to “get ahead.” Or maybe I should say I don’t see that drive on the same level I see here in the States. It seems that some people are able to be content with life as it is. I want that.
I don’t want to be stagnant or apathetic. I don’t want to stop moving or changing or growing. I don’t want to turn down opportunities or turn away from people. What I DO want is to stop trying to go to the next thing all the time. I feel like I am always trying to figure out what should be next – what I should write next, what I should read next, what I should do next. I wonder if it’s a coincidence that the words “next” and “exit” contain so many of the same letters.
Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.
Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. (Matthew 6)
I feel like this idea applies even to the good things – a book publication, a house sale, a vacation. If we are always working for tomorrow, when do we ever appreciate today and all the glory it brings. When can we be in the moment, as the great yogis teach.
Today, each moment, I will try anew to be in that moment. Resting there. I will be faithful to what God is teaching me, and I will trust that the rest will come. I will learn to trust myself in the process.
This morning, the air is cool with the breath of fall. I will breath it.
Don’t forget my weekly book giveaway. This week, Al Gore’s Our Purpose.